What the hell am I supposed to do now?

So my book got shipped off to my fantastic "editors" (also known as close friends who offered to read it and give opinions).

And now....I guess I have to do all of that stuff I've been putting off since I got really focused on the book?

I took out my garbage(s) and worked on my grad school paper. Went for a (shitty) run. Yet, I am still anxiously waiting word from my three readers as to their opinions of the book..

I want you to know, three people who have my manuscript in their inboxes, that I am resisting the urge to pester you every three seconds with asking if you've read it yet. I know you have lives and you are doing a big favor, so I'm not going to pester you about it. If you get to it, you get to it. If you don't, you don't.

But....

...

Did you start reading it yet?

I always go through this writing hangover period after I finish a project. I've been so focused on it for weeks and weeks and weeks, and now I've got energy and nothing to do with it. Sure, I could work on Book 2, and have, buttttttttt....

I'm so anxious about what they think. And I'm starting to panic that I fail as a writer and I will never be able to quit my job and become a novelist full time and....blargh. 

Yeah, I know. Sorry for the spazoid post.